It seems as soon as we shared our new house excitement with you all, everything went wrong. We got the original home inspection report finally in our hands and saw the foundation of the house was in shambles and it would cost thousands of dollars that we just didn’t have. Before putting any unnecessary money into the property, we decided the best thing to do would be to walk away. For two days straight, I cried. I was heartbroken. I had believed this would be our house and we lost it. I was so upset. And it seems since then we have felt a bit lost and not sure what to do next. Should we buy? Should we rent and continue to save? We just don’t know. We are completely torn and lost.

I feel defeated and try not to be negative but mostly, I just want everything to be over and just be living somewhere with my husband. At this point, that is all I need to make me happy. Everything else will follow and whatever decision we make next is God pointing us in the right direction. We will learn something from all of this and though it’s all so unclear right now, I know eventually we will see why this all happened.